How does one walk away from all of the memories?
I read BOON'S blog, titled: How does one walk away from all of the memories?
Its so apt for my feelings these 2 months.....
Let me summary what he wrote.
"I hate myself.. I hate my past.. i regret everything that i had did.. I wish i can turn back time so that i can change everything.. (There is no point just saying "time will heal everything" and all these craps cos the past is the past.. it happened.. you cant erase it as much as you would like to) ... but there's nothing i can do... all i can do is to tell myself that everything wil be fine tomorrow... and hope that one day, with a miracle, everything will change...
We are so in love with each other.. but is it really so hard for two people in love to be together? All the thought that we will be happy once we are together, living happily everafter, is all but an illusion.. there's no such thing as "happily everafter"...
Next time when u do something.. think first.. for u never know whether you will regret in future... u never know what will happen.. be careful at every steps that you take... for it might change your life or someone's else life forever...
The highlighted parts are so well described.. it reflects the reality.. ONe can really just walk away from a long term relationship when both parties still love each other.. Well. It seems yesterday that they were still in love and the next day, just a spark to initiate the explosive of displeased of the other party and led to a COLD WAR, which inevitable ended up with one ignoring the other totally. Forcing the "Victim" of COLD WAR to slowly accept the fact that the other is willing to move on, leaving behind many years of love, communication, plans... No calls, no emails, nothing. Totally unexpected reaction while all the while living in a dilussion that all will be fine in the end, asking for MIracle.. ALL IT TOOK WAS ONE INCIDENT TO SPARK IT OFF..
It is that simple...
There seems no need for explanation, no need for "jiao dai".. SMSes were:
" I don't expect you to wait so long, if you have betters, you should consider, I will not blame you seriously."
I mean, if you wanna break off, make it a clean break. How do you suppose your partner to move on with you saying that? Aren't you the one who promised a 4 Day COLD WAR which became 8 weeks and its all you can say? Com'on.. if you promised everything will be FINE after that COOL OFF, then give an answer.
If YOU YOURSELF have other offers, then let the other go. By sms-ing that, will only make your partner feel that its NOT ALL OVER YET. That is totally unfair. And besides, your partner don't deserve that.. Didn't you promised to love your partner forever? Didn't you claimed you have been loving your partner for that few years? WHY can you just walk away like that??
Perhaps you have other offers.. and was CHANCING on that SPARK to blow things off.
Same as betrayer. Your partner cannot stop loving you, just because you stray.
"After tears and heartache, feel your heart and asked if you can truly forget all the memories these years"
For me... Definitely not. It will only make me feel more miserable. With times like that, I can no longer stand by my morals of fighting towards the end even if i have to lose. It seems worthless now that i think back. Answers no longer serve any purpose now.... but .... I could have stopped at 1st year.
I WAS SO DAMN RIGHT THEN.
**If you are not sure what i am trying to convey, its alright, because i am still confused**
Its so apt for my feelings these 2 months.....
Let me summary what he wrote.
"I hate myself.. I hate my past.. i regret everything that i had did.. I wish i can turn back time so that i can change everything.. (There is no point just saying "time will heal everything" and all these craps cos the past is the past.. it happened.. you cant erase it as much as you would like to) ... but there's nothing i can do... all i can do is to tell myself that everything wil be fine tomorrow... and hope that one day, with a miracle, everything will change...
We are so in love with each other.. but is it really so hard for two people in love to be together? All the thought that we will be happy once we are together, living happily everafter, is all but an illusion.. there's no such thing as "happily everafter"...
Next time when u do something.. think first.. for u never know whether you will regret in future... u never know what will happen.. be careful at every steps that you take... for it might change your life or someone's else life forever...
The highlighted parts are so well described.. it reflects the reality.. ONe can really just walk away from a long term relationship when both parties still love each other.. Well. It seems yesterday that they were still in love and the next day, just a spark to initiate the explosive of displeased of the other party and led to a COLD WAR, which inevitable ended up with one ignoring the other totally. Forcing the "Victim" of COLD WAR to slowly accept the fact that the other is willing to move on, leaving behind many years of love, communication, plans... No calls, no emails, nothing. Totally unexpected reaction while all the while living in a dilussion that all will be fine in the end, asking for MIracle.. ALL IT TOOK WAS ONE INCIDENT TO SPARK IT OFF..
It is that simple...
There seems no need for explanation, no need for "jiao dai".. SMSes were:
" I don't expect you to wait so long, if you have betters, you should consider, I will not blame you seriously."
I mean, if you wanna break off, make it a clean break. How do you suppose your partner to move on with you saying that? Aren't you the one who promised a 4 Day COLD WAR which became 8 weeks and its all you can say? Com'on.. if you promised everything will be FINE after that COOL OFF, then give an answer.
If YOU YOURSELF have other offers, then let the other go. By sms-ing that, will only make your partner feel that its NOT ALL OVER YET. That is totally unfair. And besides, your partner don't deserve that.. Didn't you promised to love your partner forever? Didn't you claimed you have been loving your partner for that few years? WHY can you just walk away like that??
Perhaps you have other offers.. and was CHANCING on that SPARK to blow things off.
Same as betrayer. Your partner cannot stop loving you, just because you stray.
"After tears and heartache, feel your heart and asked if you can truly forget all the memories these years"
For me... Definitely not. It will only make me feel more miserable. With times like that, I can no longer stand by my morals of fighting towards the end even if i have to lose. It seems worthless now that i think back. Answers no longer serve any purpose now.... but .... I could have stopped at 1st year.
I WAS SO DAMN RIGHT THEN.
**If you are not sure what i am trying to convey, its alright, because i am still confused**
posted by Evo_baby @ 10:31 PM
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